Where are you Christmas?

This is how I've been feeling lately. I haven't really been in the Christmas spirit, and it seems like every time I try something gets in my way. Or should I say someone? I have been waiting for weeks to get our real Christmas tree, and we still DO NOT have one. But as far as I know we should be getting ours on Sunday. But we shall see... So in the mean time I decided to put the fake tree in my room! And I'm really happy with it! In fact I think I'll be putting it in my room every year from now on! It has already given me some Christmas cheer! It's really all thanks to my best friend Lyda. She's the one who put the thought in my head in the first place.  What are Best Friends for! :D She's really awesome! I can always count on her to put a smile on my face no matter what! The only down side to getting in the Christmas spirit is that along with that comes the music. And as we all know not all of it is happy. Some of it. If not all of it in some way is sad.

This time of year is one of the hardest for me and my family.

Everyone is happy and cheerful with there loved ones, and my home is missing peaces. Were still and always will me broken in some way.

Life is changing, and sadly moving on with out our Mom. The Holidays are once more going to come and go, with one empty chair at the table, and one big empty hole in our hearts.

This song just says some of the things I'm feeling right now.

The song says "Where are you Christmas Why can't I find you
Why have you gone away Where is the laughter You used to bring me?" And that pretty much sums it up. I just can't find my Christmas. But just like the song goes on, I will find my Christmas some day soon!  

Where are you Christmas
Why can't I find you
Why have you gone away
Where is the laughter
You used to bring me
Why can't I hear music play

My world is changing
I'm rearranging
Does that mean Christmas changes too

Where are you Christmas
Do you remember
The one you used to know
I'm not the same one
See what the time's done
Is that why you have let me go

Christmas is here
Everywhere, oh
Christmas is here
If you care, oh

If there is love in your heart and your mind
You will feel like Christmas all the time

I feel you Christmas
I know I've found you
You never fade away
The joy of Christmas
Stays here inside us
Fills each and every heart with love

Where are you Christmas
Fill your heart with love

Happy December First!

I can't believe it's December first already. This year has gone by so fast. It has been full of so many exciting things. Along with some tragedies all at the same time. From losses of loved ones, to still grieving the loss of my mom. I've still been blessed so much this year. I've had the opportunity to meet and make new friends in so many different ways I never thought I would. I have some of the greatest friends! Who have been with me throughout this year. We've done so much traveling from Corpus Christi, to Athens, to back-and-forth to Galveston, to see my best friend for Lyda.
I am so thankful for all the friends God, has given me this year. I had a great Thanksgiving, we went to George West, to go see my Grandma, and my Aunt, along with my dad's girlfriend! We spent Thanksgiving with them. And it was very good. I But i think i ate way too much food this year. ;) We also went to Corpus Christi, to go see our Grandma and Grandpa there. I got to spend time with my cousins. We went out to dinner, went riding on the bayfront. Spent time with my aunts and uncles that I haven't seen for a while. It's good to spend time, and catch up with the ones you love the most, but see the lease. ;D Down below our pictures of our time with our family this past Thanksgiving!







































Look at the little sleeping baby!



Nutella hot chocolate! My favorite. ;P





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The End!
Peace, Love & Happiness!
Xoxo Catie,
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